Settling In

What a wonderful start of the day.
Although it may not be the sunniest day, there's still an adventure awaiting for me out there.

Did you know that it takes 43 muscles to frown but only 17 to smile?
LET'S ALL ACTIVATE THOSE 17 MUSCLES NOW,WHY DON'T WE?
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
There! Wasn't that easy?

I was settling in the Norwegian exchange students yesterday.
And decided to bring them out for bubble tea.
Result: Shock and Disappointment
Lesson: Evelyn must never again bring Norwegian students to cafes that sell drinks with weird black squishy round things in them.

1Sam 24:12 *May the Lord judge between you and me. And may the Lord avenge the wrongs you have done to me, but my hand will not touch you.*

Eat your vitamins and keep yourselves hydrated at all times!


Cabbage Wabbage

The Bridegroom

Slimy droppings
Oozes over his body
A body so big
A brain the size of a mustard seed
forest he owns
with no trees
Flies buzzing around
Crossed eyes
There he stands
crouching...
His wounded skin boils
Mice infesting his lungs..
A beast breeds in his heart
His forehead is growing moldy
A century
ten decades
hundred years
Thirty six thousand five hundred twenty four days
Ticks away
Memories made
but not remembered
Beneath the moon
he stands
He awaits his bride

I laugh

object.
merciless beings why do you fear?
power.
Merely a speckle of dust on the face of the universe
monstrous creatures crawling
teeth grinding.
I touch beyond what I can see.
I feel colors.
I smell music.
I close my eyes, and I see clearer.
Silence is noise.
I move in stillness.
I cry behind my skin.
My left equals to my right's right.
Butterfly is such a weird name.
Do we exist for the reason.
or
Do reasons exist for us?

I laugh.
No understanding.
I laugh.
No power over fate.
I laugh.
No choice over death.
I laugh.
No rules over nature.
I laugh.
Mind over body.
I laugh.
Body over mind.

Do you see why I laugh?

A girl

She looks around
Sad eyes hidden...
Hopeful eyes widen...
Stares at herself
Her own reflection
through broken pieces of glass.

One day
white she wishes
A crown on her head
shower of jewels and diamond
Yes, I do
She awaits no more
Takes flight in his embrace
Safe in the shadows
of a masculine figure
Hopeful eyes widen...
This is it

Shattered heart
piercing from within
Bullet proof wall built around her skin
Nothing can touch her.
Hidden sad eyes
open wide...
Tears of blood
stream down her cheeks

Feel no more
Hear no more
See no more
......................................................

Immortal Love is What I Seek

The faithful love I have just described below does not exist amongst mortals. If you wish to know more please do not feel reluctant to ask.

My dearest readers,
There is a greater life beyond what we can see.
It is the second day of my year in Augsburg.

Although not many has returned from their break, I am already feeling the excitement pumping through my veins.
My course load this semester is pretty heavy.
Here it goes:
-Foundations of Fitness
-Music of the 20th Century
-Instrumental Conducting
-Paul the Apostle
-Physics for the Fine Arts
-Augsburg Choir
-Voice Class
-Junior Recital
-20+ work study hours on top of this
Fuhh...I need tons of magical fuel to keep me running strong.

I hope everyone had a good New Years!

Heartily,
Cabbage Wabbage

A faithful lover

I said no, you still love me.
I shoved you aside, you still love me.
I walked away, you still love me.
I forget about you, you still love me.
I was dirty, you still love me.
I wouldn't let go of my past, you still love me.
I was blind, you still love me.
You didn't just love me,
You stood beside me
You held me close
You cried with me
You cried for me
You took my wound and placed it upon Yourself
You gave me--the hopeless, a light that breaks through the darkest of the dark.

I want to abide in You the exact same way You have abide in me.
I am Your's forever because You have been and will always be mine...


Heartily,
Cabbage Wabbage

First Day In Augsburg for the year 2008

Dearest readers,
I'm back on the go.
Began work today, and will be assisting the new incoming international students for the next week.
There were a couple of them that came in today. You can tell by the look of their faces that they were tired and homesick/lovesick.
WOW...being away from home for the past 5 years has pretty much drained out my memories of how much I use to be homesick.
Life in Malaysia was wild and adventurous for me.
I was the princess of rebellion. I loved breaking rules.
I knew everyone and everyone knew me.
I had "friends". I had my boyfriend.
Then I moved into an unfamiliar land. Different language, culture, set of rules, people, climate, neighborhood...No more friends, no more popularity, no more boy friend, no more attention, no more "the Evelyn"...only a stranger, an international student who always sits by herself in the corner.
I was angry. God took away everything I once had. The power and the control I use to have are all gone.
I will never stay here for long ...
That was 2002, now it's 2008...and I am still here, alive and livin it up.
When things change, it seems like the end of the world. But through hope and patience, beauty will reveal itself to us someday.

=) Cabbage Wabbage