Speak truth to the mirror.
Do not look away.
For what you see is not a lie.
Look a little closer...
Not too close!
Close enough to see your beautiful face.
Maybe a couple zits and blackheads here and there.
Your eyebrows probably need some trimming
DON'T LOOK AWAY JUST YET!
Okay, now you're a lil' too close.
Careful now,
Being selfish is not conceited.
Self obsession, and self pitying over the image in front you can only cause harm
Stop fixing yourself! Stop re-applying your foundation...
over and over and over...
Stand straight. Look at yourself right in the eyes.
You are alright.
Now you're ready to face the world.
Break a Leg!
Cabbage Wabbage
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Saturday, March 8, 2008
SO MUCH TO DO!!!
1. Summary Paper for 20th Century Music
2. Paper for Paul the Apostle.
3. Reading for Paul the Apstle
-Complete Romans -Paul and Religious experience(493) -Political Theory(539)
-(108-111) Righteousness of God
4. Research Paper for 20th Century Music
5. Analyze Haydn's London Symphony for Instrumental Conducting
6. RECITAL...which will need a completely new list of task.
....sigh......Good weekend...good weekend....
Cabbage Wabbage
2. Paper for Paul the Apostle.
3. Reading for Paul the Apstle
-Complete Romans -Paul and Religious experience(493) -Political Theory(539)
-(108-111) Righteousness of God
4. Research Paper for 20th Century Music
5. Analyze Haydn's London Symphony for Instrumental Conducting
6. RECITAL...which will need a completely new list of task.
....sigh......Good weekend...good weekend....
Cabbage Wabbage
Thursday, March 6, 2008
A Shelf at a Time
I've realized that I never complete any task/responsibility/activity....
I don't half ass...trust me, I'm a perfectionist.
This is the problem for over-achievers.
We want to do so much with so little time. We cramp them together and end up with a whole bunch of open ended-ness.
Today, I chose to take a break from my 8AM class to center my universe.
Carefully, Cabbage Wabbage made sure that she was patient with herself and allowed herself to do what she needs to.
I must understand that time is longer than how I perceive it. I must never put myself in a hurry position.
I am not in a hurry. What do I need to hurry for? The second coming? The end of the world? My death?
When my day comes, I will die and past away.
As of now, I must prioritize my mess. And organize it a piece at a time.
Please be nice to yourself.
Cabbage Wabbage
I don't half ass...trust me, I'm a perfectionist.
This is the problem for over-achievers.
We want to do so much with so little time. We cramp them together and end up with a whole bunch of open ended-ness.
Today, I chose to take a break from my 8AM class to center my universe.
Carefully, Cabbage Wabbage made sure that she was patient with herself and allowed herself to do what she needs to.
I must understand that time is longer than how I perceive it. I must never put myself in a hurry position.
I am not in a hurry. What do I need to hurry for? The second coming? The end of the world? My death?
When my day comes, I will die and past away.
As of now, I must prioritize my mess. And organize it a piece at a time.
Please be nice to yourself.
Cabbage Wabbage
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Out to In
On Wednesday,
I had my second piano concert. Biggest piece I've played so far.
Debussy's Jardins sous la pluie. Garden in the Rain.
It wasn't my best performance. Couple bloopers here and there. Overall, an avarage performance.
...there is a deep point to this entry.
First of all, let me just say that Mac Phail has the most beautiful piano I've ever layed hands on in my entire life-->Not exaggerating
Each key had such a luscious feel--creating a sound so pure, I shivered.
Such a distracting beauty. I could not focus on my music at all. Yes, I got distracted by the beauty of a piano...I must be going crazy.
Then, something else happened while I was playing.
I transcended into a spiritual zone, which brought my mind out of my body... I could hear and watch myself like a spectator from a far away balcony...my fingers, hands and body were still moving the way they were trained to, but my spirit was not in my body. I literally had to force my way back into the body again.
...I must really be going crazy...
I had my second piano concert. Biggest piece I've played so far.
Debussy's Jardins sous la pluie. Garden in the Rain.
It wasn't my best performance. Couple bloopers here and there. Overall, an avarage performance.
...there is a deep point to this entry.
First of all, let me just say that Mac Phail has the most beautiful piano I've ever layed hands on in my entire life-->Not exaggerating
Each key had such a luscious feel--creating a sound so pure, I shivered.
Such a distracting beauty. I could not focus on my music at all. Yes, I got distracted by the beauty of a piano...I must be going crazy.
Then, something else happened while I was playing.
I transcended into a spiritual zone, which brought my mind out of my body... I could hear and watch myself like a spectator from a far away balcony...my fingers, hands and body were still moving the way they were trained to, but my spirit was not in my body. I literally had to force my way back into the body again.
...I must really be going crazy...
Battles to Love Yourself
Loving What You Do Vs. Accomplishing
Productive Vs. Idle
Energized Vs. Sleep Deprived
Full Vs. Hungry
Quenched Vs. Thirsting
Natural Vs. Unnatural
Unnatural Vs. Natural
Intentional Vs. Accidental
Fuck it, I don't give a shit! VS. Fuck it, what have I got to lose?
Fun Vs. Fear
Centered Vs. Imbalanced
Love Thyself,
Cabbage Wabbage
Productive Vs. Idle
Energized Vs. Sleep Deprived
Full Vs. Hungry
Quenched Vs. Thirsting
Natural Vs. Unnatural
Unnatural Vs. Natural
Intentional Vs. Accidental
Fuck it, I don't give a shit! VS. Fuck it, what have I got to lose?
Fun Vs. Fear
Centered Vs. Imbalanced
Love Thyself,
Cabbage Wabbage
Monday, March 3, 2008
Love, by Tobi
I've been learning a lot about love.
Love is self-control, waiting, permitting another's freedom to choose and to act in their own time and way, holding back your initial reaction, choosing when and when not to express yourself or emotion, doing your part and letting the other person do theirs without pushing them.
Love is self-control.
And self-control is actually a kind of faith – faith that God is more than able to satisfy you and take care of you, faith that God is working in the other person just as He is working in you, faith that the other person is doing their best to grow too.
I have so much growing to do.
Love is self-control, waiting, permitting another's freedom to choose and to act in their own time and way, holding back your initial reaction, choosing when and when not to express yourself or emotion, doing your part and letting the other person do theirs without pushing them.
Love is self-control.
And self-control is actually a kind of faith – faith that God is more than able to satisfy you and take care of you, faith that God is working in the other person just as He is working in you, faith that the other person is doing their best to grow too.
I have so much growing to do.
-Tobi
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Perfectionism
Sometimes, the flesh and the conscience do not like the words from the heart.
There are times when I would feel completely confidence in the things that I'm doing, the decisions that I'm making, and life in general.
Then, I'll run into days when I'll find myself in the dumpster, pitying poor me like a pathetic lil' puppy.
It's tough to be a girl. Menstruation, PMS...all those good stuff...yip!
Females should get a week off from everything each month. That would definitely make this world a better place, wouldn't you agree?
So far, I've had piano lesson and did tons of homework today.
Anticipating a wonderful Concerto concert in the Orchestra Hall tonight! So I better get more work done.
Farewell, for now.....
There are times when I would feel completely confidence in the things that I'm doing, the decisions that I'm making, and life in general.
Then, I'll run into days when I'll find myself in the dumpster, pitying poor me like a pathetic lil' puppy.
It's tough to be a girl. Menstruation, PMS...all those good stuff...yip!
Females should get a week off from everything each month. That would definitely make this world a better place, wouldn't you agree?
So far, I've had piano lesson and did tons of homework today.
Anticipating a wonderful Concerto concert in the Orchestra Hall tonight! So I better get more work done.
Farewell, for now.....
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