Just another marathon

Ok, about my last post.
I didn't mean it when I said "I didn't learn shit".
In fact, that was probably the biggest lie I've told this semester.
I've learned more than both hands full in the past 3 months.

Pressing on.
Consistency
to the very end.
Squeezing the very last drop of energy out of me without breaking myself.
That is exactly what I need to do this week.

I will give all I can give until my very last final project.

Just another marathon in life.

Cabbage Wabbage

Fuck I've Never Actually Learned Shit

F.I.N.A.L.S
Yeap, this week has been a pain in the ass.
I was not at all anticipating a final this semester. Turns out that one of my professors decided to back stab the class and give us a gigantic final and a project on top of that.
lovely.

On top of that...

• Room mate conflict #1000000
• Juries
• Work
• Christmas Celebration
• Music lessons
  

Yikes.

I am not feeling good. I might be coming down with something.
Not gonna complain...Nope.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

OK we're good.

Cabbage Wabbage

wo ai ni

Tien tien wo xiang ni de ai.
Tien tien dou xiang kan jien ni de lian.
Ni zhai ne er?

Setiap hari, aku rindui cintamu.
Setiap hari, aku mimpi melihat mukamu.
Di mana Engkau?

Cabbage Wabbage

Hopelessness

Faithful reader,
It is only when one acknowledges hopelessness, then can he/she define the meaning of hope.

I question, and search for the meaning of my life.
As of now, I am in utter confusion of my existence.
I am not hopeless for my future, for I am hopeful that one day I might see the purpose of my breaths...
...hoping that someday, I may have my own apologia to claim after.
As of now, I will not deny this hopeless sensations that I have. I believe that all will come clear in time.

Never deny your weakness.
Permit yourself to make mistakes.
If needed, over-do them.

As of the very next minute, I will patiently read my Voice Rep text book, and try to complete my very first procrastinated assignment of the week...


Heartily,
Cabbage Wabbage

The journey continues

Is it just me, or do boys lose all their sensibility and intelligence once they reach their college years?
One day, I will arrange a man-hunting trip off-campus for all the Augsburg girls.

Isn't it just the greatest feeling to know that there is someone across the globe who is missing and thinking about u?

So, loneliness..
Question: am I the only one dealing with this issue right now?
Answer: No

If we all know the feeling of loneliness,
then...
Why don't we all try loving and caressing each other more often?
Why do we all act like there is no need to understand each other?
Why do we hate and call each other assholes and bitches?


Cabbage Wabbage

You are alone

lonely.

You stare into the sky on a clear night.
Clusters of stars, here and there.
You stare. you stare. and you stare
and you wonder...
where is your cluster? Where do you belong?
And then, you look around you...
only to realize that you're in the center of an open pool.
Cold...and silent...
You wish to get out.
Left, right, front, back...
No sign of land.
You're stuck.
.....
.......
Your skin's wrinkling.
let the water swallow you.
You begin to sink.
down. and down. and down.
Into the depths of pitch black.
There is no end.
You're afraid of the dark.
Numb. Silence. lame...
You can do nothing.


Friend...
You MUST Fly.
Fly for my sake, your sake and for our universe.

I love you...
Let's keep the positive vibration going.
Just between us.
Push and pull.
Give and take away.
Just love.

Healthy Vs. Instant Satisfaction

Scenario:
A customer came to the coffee shop today wondering if she should get a cookie or a rice crispy.
A rice crispy bar would be healthy, but the cookie would provide instant satisfaction. She reaches out her hand and grabs the cookie.
This is how all human brain functions. Why bother worrying about what's healthy in the long run? If he/she/it can satisfy my current needs and desires, why should I suffer the pain of waiting/separation for my future's sake? If I never satisfy my current needs to the day I die, when will I ever be satisfied then? Why do I wanna quit smoking if I love it so much? Why do I wanna keep ignoring him if it's making me suffer in the inside? Why should I choose to do my hw if I don't wanna do it? Why do I wanna go to class when I can sleep all day? Why should we break up for our future's sake if we love each other so deeply?

What would u like sir, a long term health or an instant dose of satisfaction?

Cabbage Wabbage