Tuesday, October 21, 2008

My Need for Organization

I need to get my life organized. I've been telling myself since the beginning of school. But never got to it.
So guys, here we are. Middle of the semester.
Has anyone learned anything about themselves yet?
Have you gotten your money's worth?
Coz I sure have.

Honestly, college is not about education. It is about experiences, choices, and relationships.
We are paying for the degree. That's all.

Time to consider what I would like to do with my life for the next 5 year.

Take care everyone.
Let's hope I can survive this week.

Cabbage Wabbage

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The mountains call on me,
Echoing across the ocean,
for me to come home...
Where is home?

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Ok...

Maybe I was a lil too big of an over achiever.
Lately, I've been 2nd guessing everything that I've piled on my plate for this semester.
Outcome:
1)I'm tired
2)I'm almost sick
3)I don't have time to hang out
4)I don't have time to practice what I want to
5)I'm frustrated
6)Fire's blasting out my butt!!!

lol..anyways, so I've made a couple decisions to help myself.

1) Withdraw from my recital
2) Quit one of my jobs
3) Smile more often
4) Revisit my spiritual growth
5) Meditate
6) Workout more often
7) Stop worrying..(this one's the hardest to get through)

Hope you sweets are doing well!

Cabbage Wabbage

Friday, October 10, 2008

Tough Weeks! Tough year!!! Oi....

Papers after Tests after Exams after Papers....Fuh...
It's been pretty rough.

Hope everyone is doing well.
I've finally turned in my happiness paper.
And I will post it up sometime today.

The leaves are finally turning yellow, orange and red.
I may wanna take my recital pic sometimes this week.
Or go apple picking instead =)

Anyhow,
Hope all is well.

I have so many upcoming singing events. I will post the dates up soon.

Cabbage Wabbage

Friday, October 3, 2008

Failure leads to melancholy....

Which leads us right into avoidance of the risk to fail again.
So we begin investing all our energy and focus into a different/unchallenged/easier task.
By doing this, we will never realize the amount of potential that lies within each of us.

We may also be lead into anger and resentment towards the world.
We blame it all on (fate), the (punished) lives, the (unjust) God.

Anger and resentment towards the world does not give you an excuse to avoid yourself.

"Anxiety and fear of failure are often the source of self condemnation and the disapproval of others, both of which are severe blows to a self-worth based on personal success and approval. If failure is great enough or occurs often enough, it can harden into a negative self-concept in which we will expect to fail and virtually every endeavor. This negative self-concept perpetuates itself and lads to a downward spiral of anxiety about our performance and fear of disapproval from others."
-Robert McGee

More to come...

Cabbage Wabbage

Continued...

When you turn the search into a game of hunt,
it can easily detract you from the bigger picture.

I've always been a big dreamer.
When I was young, I would pray that
God would "make me someone great. That I may be used to glorify His name."
It is so easy to get caught up in the game.
Your goal is the "happiness".
So you set strategies that could help you reach your goal.

The bigger perfectionist you are,
The bigger your dreams are,
and the higher your standards will be,
The harder you will have to work.
And when your standards are up high,
Bigger are your chances to fail.
And when you invest so much
becoming that perfectly happy and accomplished person,
all it takes is one failure to pull you back down to the dumps.

Cabbage Wabbage

Maybe happiness is...

Not about getting something.
It is not about accomplishments by itself.
It is not about materials.
It is not about power.
It is not about earnings.

And maybe (just maybe), it is not about pursuing happiness.
And maybe (just maybe), it is about searching for significance.
Once you understand how significant you are in this world,
you become happy.

Your desire to be someone
loved, good, helpful, influential, remembered,

Someone significant.


Cabbage Wabbage

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Letter to the Night mouth guard company =)

To Whom It May Concern:

A couple weeks ago, I purchased ____ Night Guard not knowing that I have pre-TMJ symptoms. The morning after I tried it on, my jaw was extremely tense to the point where I could not open my mouth wide.
Now, I am writing to request for a full refund on my guaranteed fit night guard.

Thank you for your time and service.

Sincerely,


HAHAHA....yea, so I could not open my mouth the day after. It was probably one of the scariest days of my life.
Oh, you can't even imagine how painful it was. It clicked super loud before I could actually say AAAHHH!
It took two days to loosen up..
Yea scary. Not gonna try one of those things ever again.

Happy October guys!
30 more days till Halloween!!! YAY!

Cabbage Wabbage

The Magic Flute

Our Queen has heard your anxious plea,
at her command I set you free,
(Now Papageno's free to chatter)
No lying! That's a serious matter!
(I'll never tell another lie)
This padlock warns you not to try.
(This padlock warns me not to try)
This golden padlock warns you not to try.
If lying lips
could all be fettered,
If such a lock could close them tight,
then slander, hate and lies would vanish,
and men would live in love and light,

THEN SLANDER HATE and LIES WOULD VANISH!
and men would live in love and light.

O Prince!
Receive this gift from me!
Our queen bestows it by my hand.
This magic flute she deigns to send you.
In danger's hour it will defend you.
And by this flute great pow'rs are granted,
All human souls can be enchanted,
for those who grieve.
Forget their pain,
and stony hearts grow mild again.

Ah!

Accomplished=Happy?

Something that I've just recently noticed.
I'm extremely happy when I get something accomplished.

Lately, I've been procrastinating in cleaning my room.
Fall's finally here, and I've decided to dedicate today for house cleaning.
New decorations, putting away summer clothes, arranging my winter jackets and coats, hats, gloves, mittens, scarfs...and recycling old papers (it's amazing how much paper one can go through in a month).

Now that my room is clean, I get the feeling of satisfaction.
I've accomplished something.
It feels good.
I don't necessarily feel like I'm high on ecstasy.
But it definitely feels great to come back to a clean and organized room.

Next goal: Memorizing my scores for tomorrow.

Cabbage Wabbage

Need Vs. Want

Your decisions are mostly based on your ability to differentiate things that you need versus things that you want.
Your temporary desires--fleeting desires, momentary, an escape from reality...
Your lifelong needs--health, a balanced center, wisdom, at peace with your life, relationship, family, religion...

Before you purchase something, before you head out to hunt, know if it is something you want or need.
Are you pursuing your target for the sake of the game of hunting?
Or are you actually in need of your hunt?

Are you purchasing necessity?
Would you have purchased it if it was never made available to you?

Cabbage Wabbage